His unwillingness to accept the reality of his circumstances does little to stifle his pride, his conviction. (His ego). Calais is fury unrelenting, all things tousled fur and pinched nose. Even his easy saunter carries a tightness beset by uncertainty. He is used to understanding
everything. From the birds in the trees to the whims of the wind. That he does not is unsettling, at best.
At worst,
embarrassing.
He must look like a
newborn fawn, traipsing about the forest as he is. Snow is not unfamiliar, but he's never seen it so deep, so bitterly cold. It might be enjoyable were he drunk enough, but Calais has never felt more sober in his life. And now all he can think about is the way his knees are knocking, shoulders
shuddering. Snowflakes gather on the fringes of his eyelashes. Small, white speckles dust across his long, skinny back.
For days, he's wandered in circles.
Torn in indecision—either waiting here where he awoke for help to arrive, or setting off in a last throe to
help himself—Calais wanders no further than just within earshot. But the monotony, and the cold, of the forest is making him weary.
Whatever he decides, he must decide soon.
With an overexaggerated huff, he shoves his face into a bank of snow. Hoping, bleakly, that the frost might just
wake him up.
ooc. for Gjalla ! ;u;